Wow Think I might want a baby girl

So on Friday my co workers throw this baby shower for one of our co worker Hadyn. She is to cute, she is having 2 baby girls Jennifer and Madison and we could not be happier for her.  Getting pregnant was not easy for her she tired and tired and finally had to use invetro. Where they take you eggs from the ovaries fertilizes them on the out side and them place them back in once the egg has been fertilized.   It was a long painful road for her but she has made Feb. 15 she is having her c-section and the twins will be here.  But while I was shopping for her stuff, at last minute. lol. I couldn't help but have the feeling to want to do this for my self.  Buy the pink and purple, the hair bows and ribbon. I was so against all of it before but it just seemed so cute and warming.   I got to the register and realized that I had just picked up $100 worth of stuff and my cart was not even full. lol Of course had to put tons of stuff back cause I love Hadyn and all but I am a single mom who does't work nor make that much! But I could help myself ...there was sooooo many cute things and things she would need when the babies got here for some reason I thought I had to have it all. When I got to the shower it got worse to see her cute big belly and that beautiful glow that she had made me envy her much more!  Then it was gift time and all her gifts were just to darn cute....I wanted to take them home with me and go find me a baby girl to adopt. Crazy? I know, I don't know what is coming over me and this whole baby thing, I know I cant handle another one but for some reason want that lil girl in my life.  And just a couple of months ago I was anti girl.  I wanted nothing but boys cause I know I can not do hair lol! Well who knowns what the future holds for me, but first things first I need to get a man....a good man who can support his family and love us. When God sends him my way it is all systems go LOL!